Yes, I have thought along the same lines for years. My father worked for Swift meats for 30 years and during that time I learned plenty about the meat business. I became concerned at a young age about the hormones given to animals when they're in the feed lot, and tenderizers injected into an animal before it's butchered. Visiting a hog processing plant with all the hogs screaming, plus the stink was eye-opening.
All these years later, after a long stint as a vegetarian, I started eating wild meat and fish and have always had a vegetable garden large enough that I can feed my family all winter with what I grow. It's important to know where your food comes from. It's also "right livelihood" to be grateful and thank the animal that feeds you.
IMHO, you are doing well, Jackson.