Ben my heart is with you my friend. I have no way of knowing how hard this must be for you now. Upon hearing the sad news, I realized that this must be part of the reason you seem to have a thoughtful, introspective nature in your writings. I wish you the very best in family and community support well on into the future after the immediate grief has passed. You have a community here that loves you and is at the ready to help if you will say the word.