I have tucked my tail and headed home with tag soup and days left on the tag. I recall the MT mountain goat tag in 2020, WA archery elk tag in 2010ish and a NM Coues buck tag in 2008ish. All were solo hunts.
My body gave out in MT on what ended up being the first trip then returned to see nothing on the second try. WA was dead quiet though was the rut and I never got into elk before hiked out. The Coues hunt was nothing like Eastern whitetail which I was expecting from my hunts as a kid so using the wrong tactics and glassing the wrong spots was my failure, most likely.
Now, I have hunted close to 100 big game tags, usually on my own and on public land, with most of those hunts ending with having notched tags for elk, mule deer, Eastern and Coues whitetails, and pronghorn plus two mountain billy goats, a bighorn ewe and a Shiras bull moose. 12 states where have filled big game tags.
Sometimes, is a grind. I like the grind. Sometimes the grind defeats me, though. I have never regretted any hunt. It is I being measured against the mountain. I like that.
I keep a hunt log book and is good for my soul to read back as I am brutally honest in my writings. I was a moron more than once like when I did not dial my variable scope down in close quarters as was getting in closer to finish off a critter. I tend to recall the highlights if not browsing the hunt logs. Is good to be humbled as look up from the rocking chair and see the big bull elk shoulder mount staring down. I am not Daniel Boone. Nor, Debbie Boone.
I head to Africa next year and will be a gentleman's hunt with warm, running water and food prepared twice a day, etc. Is a big chunk of land yet are fences around the ranch for some very good reasons. I am at peace with that aspect. I will likely tip over more animals in two weeks than would in two or three years back home. I will begin hunting Cape Buffalo as the sun rises on my birthday on my first, likely only, trip to the continent. Is what I will be doing actually hunting? The likelihood I have no opportunity is as close to zero as can be measured. Africa should be my least challenging adventure to date yet am looking forward to it very much as I like new experiences even if the animal interaction pales from the challenge of a mountain hunt solo on public land.